Saturday, October 1, 2011

In a Little While

So last week, I came across a song by Isreal Houghton titled Moving Forward. Yesterday 'Sarge' sent it to me, and it was a great reminder to me to keep pressing forward for the call of Christ. And I will do a little while.

Here is the song:

Such a beautiful song and lyrics are so fitting.

Sorry I haven't updated in awhile. Been quite busy these past days! A few moments of grief too, and haven't really felt like writing anything much but general stuff on Facebook updates.

I am grieving right now. Grief is so different for everyone and for different reasons and seasons. People so want to pull me up by my bootstraps, but only God can do that. People just gotta let people grieve. Sit there with them, cry with them, and pray for them. "Weep with those who weep, mourn with those who mourn". Not FIX them. God will do HIS work! HE is doing HIS best work in us all.

I'm not going to get stuck again. It is OK to miss people we love and SHOW them that we will miss them!

Jesus cried when Lazarus died. Even Jacob, when he thought his son was dead and thought he would never see him again said he would NEVER be comforted again! Paul missed people so much when he was on his missionary travels. Now, I'm not Jesus, Jacob, or Paul, and neither are we. We want to be like Jesus, but none of us are going to be JUST LIKE Jesus! We will never be PERFECT.

Boy if there is one thing I am learning for myself, it is to quit trying to tell people when and how to get thru their personal trials. Yes ENCOURAGE, REMIND THEM of who they are, remind them it is OK to cry. Don't say to them things that are going to hurt them, or make them feel that they are not making it thru in the 'right time'. It is THEIR journey. Each person has their own journey to walk out with God. Our only job is to LOVE, and ENCOURAGE someone for the kingdom. Love God, Love Others. NONE of us have perfection down!

I realize people mean well, but they make a person feel worse than they already feel. It can do more damage than good sometimes. We ARE NOT robots, and neither was Jesus! He was GOD in the flesh and we are NOT!

Anywho, so........ we did find a home, a townhouse actually. We had hoped for a "house", but I'm very thankful we KNOW where we are going to be living. I'm very thankful my husband has a job. I do like the town we will be living in. It seems so open, bright and hopeful. It seems to be 'alive' if that makes sense.

Our townhome is in a great location in proximity to everything we will need, including my husband's new office. It is a very roomy and more than adequate for our family (and for visitors...hint hint!) The scenery is just breathtaking around the city we are going to live in. I mean, you are driving through town, and it will open up to mountains and a valley. So beautiful! Actually, mountains all around us!! I think the elevation there is around 2200 ft above sea level.

We are working and cleaning out things. Got a lot accomplished yesterday. Getting rid of MORE today...didn't think we had much more to get rid of after so many moves, but sure enough, we do! We have done this every time we move, but there are things that I couldn't let go of last yr, that I'm willing to give away this year. It is always good and cleansing to simplify. I love to live simple, and the simplier the better with these moves we make! I'm thinking God must have called us to be traveling missionaries.

Yesterday we showed the home we are in now, to a lady who is married with a little girl. She is moving here to work for the hospital I had hoped my husband would be able to get a job with. This stung a little, I have to be honest. I thought to myself.... GOD you gave us this house we prayed for, a church family to get rooted and grounded in to serve....all answers to prayer. Then, it is like the rug gets ripped out from under me. I had a little tantrum over that with God. He is my Daddy, and he can handle me just fine, but it was just a hard moment. However, after meeting the lady, she was very nice. She is going through the SAME thing! leaving a state and home that she has always known. It was nice to comfort her, and she was a comfort to me. I have peace knowing that she and her family will be in a beautiful home and in a great neighborhood. I even told her about our church...because she mentioned that she would not have any support system here, and our church has been that and so much MORE for our family while we have been here. I'm so thankful for the family of God! What do people do without the Lord?? They have no hope.

I have to remember, this world is not my home. Eternity with Jesus in Heaven is my home, and I will see all of our (believing loved ones - those who are in Christ) again there. This world is also a SMALL WORLD! It amazes me how we can be in different parts of the world, and run into people from our hometown. It really IS a small world in many ways. I can only hope that I'll see my eastern NC friends from time to time. The good news is, we will be closer to our family and friends in Western NC.

I'm still sad for now, but it hasn't been very long since finding out we are moving! I'm really going to miss people here, and this does not mean that I am ungrateful, or not thankful, or not seeing the blessings in it all, or in the depths of despair that I'm never going to get out of (which I have been in that place before for other reasons...I'm not perfect!). It means RIGHT NOW, I am HUMAN...I'm sad, will miss and I CARE about those relationships we have made in the kingdom here. I'm not good at faking that.

At the same time, there is hope to see what God is going to do in our new place. I'm excited for my husband, because this is what he has been working toward and where he believes God has called him to serve. It is unexplored territory. Yes it is an adventure and I will SEE the blessings in all of this down the road. Right now, just sit with me in the pit and cry with me for a little while, because I WILL get through this and I'll be fine. I've got moments of laughter about this, but moments of tears with missing everyone.

In the words of Morrie, "Love or Perish". In the Bible, book of Galatians it says, "The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through love."

And I love this...

Philippians 1
18 But what does it matter? The important thing is that in every way, whether from false motives or true, Christ is preached. And because of this I rejoice. Yes, and I will continue to rejoice, 19 for I know that through your prayers and God’s provision of the Spirit of Jesus Christ what has happened to me will turn out for my deliverance. 20 I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death.

The lyrics to this song by Everember (a local band here) are so encouraging to me right now. JESUS is always in control for those who LOVE HIM and desire to do His will. Their will be trials and we are never alone....Jesus walks with us through it all. Love it!

Click Here for Moonlight by Everember

You can check out their other music here: Everember Website


Lisa Latham said...

Honey, your tears show that you are a loving compassionate woman. Don't ever harden! Keep that beautiful soft, sensitive heart! God want's you that way, and He is going to use that heart to heal others. The world needs tough people, but it also needs compassionate people. There are not enough people like you. You will be a beacon, a light, that draws the broken hearted, and then fills them with His light. Because you have hurt, they will be able to relate to you, for you will understand. They will look at you and see that you are like they are. You feel what they feel. You know what they know. Just like Jesus suffered so that He would know how we suffer, your suffering will bring understanding for other's pain. You will be a healer of hurts. You will mend the broken hearted. You will pour out the Balm of Gilead upon their wounds. Lord, thank you for such a one as this! You may not feel like it now, but you are going to do GREAT things in His name! Bless you! And love you!

Jenn said...

Thank you Lisa. You are special to the kingdom of God and a great friend. I love you!